I'm sorry

I'll try to be more diligent on this. School started and Band started and things just get busy. So I'll try to post at least two or three times a week. from now on.

Band

*sigh*

Summer Is Over

*sigh* Summer band starts tomorrow. I'm all ready. I pulled out my gigantic water bottle. Or watter cannister since it is huge and cannister-like. I am kinda excited but about 9:30 tomorrow morning I'll be like... why??? I met a dude at the theater when I saw transformers. He is in the Owasso drumline. He said they don't even have their show music yet, or well the band doesnt the drumline does though. I like him. I told him goodluck and he smiled and said thanks you too. When he asked where I was from and I said Collinsville he grinned real big and said sweet. I think I might go to the movies more often now... haha.

Hmm... So I'm making a CD of 'summer band' songs. I'm trying to get past Mr. Jackson, but of course some of his music is on there. What kind of fickle would I be if I just dropped him like that? lol. But I've been checking out Itunes top 100 and I just obviously don't care much for the music thats popular.

So far it looks like this....

1. Obsessed - Mariah Carey
2. Come Together - Michael Jackson
3. Boom Boom Pow - Black Eyed Peas
4. I Gotta Feeling - Black Eyed Peas
5. Smooth Criminal - Michael Jackson
6. Give Into Me - Michael Jackson
7. Yeah - Usher feat. Random other rappers.

And thats all but I have a lot more time to fill. *sigh* here we go... Wish me luck for band tom.
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What am I listening to?
21 Guns - Green Day

Shocker

I can't sleep.

Does that surprise you?

It shouldn't.

*zzzzzzzzzz*

I think I have Insomnia. I even wikipedia'd Insomnia and yeah. I have the symptom. Or at least I think I do. Where I can't fall asleep. Once I am asleep however, I sleep. All I have to say to that is no dice.

Also, people who sleep 6 hours or under have high mortality rates, and people who sleep 8 hours or more have high mortality rates. If your a 7 hour sleeper though, you have a low mortality rate. And here I thought 7 was a lucky number....

I have a funny link. That is sure to produce a gigglesnort for somebody. It literally makes me wanna rofl.

I'm watching season 8 of Friends. It is really making me laugh.

It's 2:49. Ohmygodwhycan'tIsleep??!?!?!?!?

If this is what celebrities go through I know why they take sleeping pills.

Ha

This is quite frankly the stupidest conspiracy I think that I've ever read about.

Scroll down the page a little to the part about Michael Jackson.

Look they even have a complete website dedicated to it.

Jeez, he's dead, the world's sad. His daughter was balling. The media is so stupid.

Tuesday Ten!

1. I'm watching the True Hollywood Story of Rock Star's wives. It's interesting and kinda sweet. I mean here's an interview with Alice Cooper all painted up and stuff talking about how he had to run to the store at midnight to get his wife some Honey Buns. It makes me smile.

2. I'm goin' to Logans tonight! Which will be yummy and tasty and will definitely agree with me.

3. I need a new phone. I want to be able to accept pictures and have pretty ringtones and be able to use twitter. :( And yeah. I know I'm selfish because there are people in the world who don't even have phones and there is more to the bigger picture than me getting a pretty new phone, but still... It'd be nice.

4. So I've been pilfering through the princeton review website. I'm such a mess about what I want to do when I grow up. I have no real idea what I wanna do when I get older. I just know I want to matter.

5. I'm not much of a tattoo fan. All these rock stars have tons of these. I just shake my head. It's not very attractive at all.

6. Why are my friends busy? Or more importantly, why don't I have anything to do outside of spending time with my friends? I tell you, I need new friends. Really badly. I honestly need to become a bit more social. I'm sure ya'll can agree. Epecially if it's four in the afternoon on a summer tuesday and I'm at home making a blog post instead of spending time with other people.

7. I have nothing to say. I have realized. But I did find a new website that albeit a bit racy is quite honestly hillarious.

8. I'm trying really really hard to not say something about Michael Jackson.... crap.

9. I'm considering changing the title to Tuesday nine.... What do you think? Oh but I'm so close to making it to the ten mark!!!

10. I just got an idea.
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What am I listening to?
Thriller - Michael Jackson

Updates

1. I've dedicated my day to learning some of MJ's moves. I have fallen to a level where even my cat is mocking me. ;)

2. It's hot. Even the pool water is practically boiling. This ails me.

3. I'm hungry.

4. I cannot for the life of me find anything worthy enough to watch on TV.

5. I think I'm going to go get food. Maybe add a new review to my book blog, I am sorely abandoning it.

Ramblin

I've decided to do a solo for WinterGuard this year. I've even picked out the song I'm really excited and hope I'll do good. Now I won't perform until like next March but it's good to get a headstart right?

Found a cool quote the other day. "Don't cry because it's over, Smile because it happened." It's by Dr.Suess isn't it cool? I put it on a sticky note on my bathroom mirror. I've decided I'm going to gather quotes and make a sticky collage. My only problem? I only have Yellow Stickies!! I need color in my life doncha think?

So Cassie and Katie are leaving me next week. My other gal pal is still staying which is good. Hope she can fit me in around her other stuff. ;)

... hmm... In the words of Porky Pig... That's all folks!

Michael Jackson

That little girls emotion is so... gut-wrenching. I cannot watch the video without tearing up. I feel so bad for her. The 'so-much' at the end is what does it I think...

So Um, honestly I didn't listen to much Michael Jackson music. I did have one of his songs though, that I absolutely loved. And even before his death would get inspired by. Maybe he was just a misunderstood person in the spotlight, or maybe he was a horrid person. But I do believe that he was one of those special people in the world. And he did make an impact on millions of people.

It's sad that someone like that, with so much creative passion, has died. Really though it's our loss, because we're never going to get anything more. And he probably could have given us much much more.

My favorite Michael Jackson song is called Will You Be There. Jennifer Hudson sang her own version of it at his memorial ceremony. There is a lyric from it, that stands out to me everytime I hear it. Many times when I'm upset or left out or just plain depressed I'll listen to it, and it would make me feel better.

"But they told me, I'm meant to be faithful, and walk when not able, and fight 'til the end when I'm only human."

Lol

Happy Birthday America

:)! So you know it totally doesn't get dark here. Our firework display was at midnight because you know, technically that makes it the fourth anyway and it was semi-dark. We drove around trying to find a spot. The docks were off-limits already so mostly we drove around until finally settling in at the Russian Fur museum. Haha I know right?

I love that feeling, patriotism is what I suppose you'd call it but at the moment your watching fireworks you just get that swell of emotion you know? To me it's an in the moment thing, a 'I can't believe I'm here' moment. I frequently sit down and think like that. The whole abstract I'm actually here and this is actually happening. I love moments like that.
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Quote of the moment:
"I love songs about horses, railroads, land, Judgment Day, family, hard times, whiskey, courtship, marriage, adultery, separation, murder, war, prison, rambling, damnation, home, salvation, death, pride, humor, piety, rebellion, patriotism, larceny, determination, tragedy, rowdiness, heartbreak and love. And Mother. And God." - Johnny Cash

I've yet...

To cross over into twitter but I am very close. Especially after finding this site.

It makes me lol. Ya'll might not find it as funny as I do... but I'm a history freak remember...

!!!

Public Enemies is out today!!!

I <3 Johnny Depp

But alas! There is something that makes this day even better!

My Dad is now over the hill. Which in my personal opinion is better than being under it. *punchline* *crowd laughter*

Thank you I'll be here 'til Sunday.

Happy Birthday Daddy.
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What am I listening to?
I'll be there - Jackson 5

Monday List

List of anything I deem worthy enough to talk about.

1. I need new music. I mean really. I haven't added anything to my ipod since the end of school. And it's practically the middle of summer. 40 of Itunes top 100 are Michael Jackson song, I'm thinking I may be downloading some Jackson... :)

2. I have 6 days left in Alaska, and to be honest, this trip has gone by so fast. I really can't believe it. I have a billion pictures to pick through and decide whats worthy to keep and what isn't.

3. The heat is going to be a royal pain when I get back.

4. Guard is guna suck, I'm guna be the worst rifle out there. I know it. I can hear Katie's gasps and sighs and 'ew's now. *sigh*

5. Can't wait to get home and see my buddies. I have a shopping trip planned with Keli. And of course I'm sure I'll be hittin' the town with my moma. Katie and I shall rent five or six realyl old movies to watch and have a marathon.

6. I might be getting a job at the pharmacy in C-Ville which is bound to be exciting yanno.

7. Principle Coleman. Yay. I like him. even though the only real conversation I had with him involved me bursting into tears and begging to not have detention.

8. I informed mother that I am sneaking into an R movie while I still have a chance to. I mean in like four months I'll be able to go legally so time is running out to sneak in. I need to have that life experience don't you think? She told me we'll see. *chesire grin* I think she'll come around eventually...

9. I need a new phone. I can charge this one all night and it's dying by six o'clock the next day. I hate phones, and they hate me.

10. I need new books to read. There's nothing worthy to read as of late. Which is bothersome. Very bothersome.

11. I love you guys. Very muchly so.
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What am I listening to?
Time is Running Out - Muse

Valedictorian

I won't eb valedictorian. Not that I really want to. I mean sure it's got amazing perks and looks good on your applications but I'm one of those don't care types. I get A's and B's and these make me happy.

There is only one reason I would want to be a valedictorian. I want to give a speech at graduation. It's probably a good thing too. Because I would go up there and completely launch into Jack Sparrows 'what a man can do and what a man can't do' speech.

"The only rules that really matter are these: what a man can do and what a man can't do. For instance, you can accept that your father was a pirate and a good man or you can't. But pirate is in your blood, boy, so you'll have to square with that some day. And me, for example, I can let you drown, but I can't bring this ship into Tortuga all by me onesies, savvy? So, can you sail under the command of a pirate, or can you not? "

Sure it'd be confusing. People would look around with a wth kind of look on their face. But I'd feel acomplished.

Haha. This post just goes to show I'm crazy. But entertaining nonetheless.
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What am I listening to?
Break on Through - The Doors

Fish

So salmon fishing. Yeah people around here are seriously into it. Including my Aunt and Uncle's neighbors. They are quite literally fishermen. It's how they make their living. They came by and gave us some cooked salmon one day and Nathan made me try it.

Gage and Landon were so right. It tastes freaking amazing. Or at least the way she cooked it it did.

Anyway the salmon are just now getting here. They do the whole, they're born here they swim out to sea for a few years tehn die here. And it's time to die.

Well last night the neighbors left for a morning fishing trip right? Right. So they're off all day fishing. I'm babysitting 12 for Uncle and Aunt. Uncle and Nathan went camping last night, god knows where, and Amy is going to some bay an hour away w/ Connor Aunt is doing housework and doesn't really wanna be bothered so yeah, I'm stuck with 12.

Which is fine, I get along with 12. So we're sitting there. I'm so happy because 12 hasn't ever seen the Pirate's of the Caribbean movies and is utterly fascinated. I'm watching for all her reactions to certain parts, explaining some things to her, basically thoroughly enjoying myself, when a knock comes at the door.

I hesitate and 12 tells me to get it. So I do. There is neighbor holding these two gigantic fish wrapped up in cling wrap or something.

"Is Kevin there?" He asks looking for my uncle.

Aunt is somewhere in the back but I've met these neighbors and their little boy so I'm confident that I can talk to them without Aunt getting upset.

"No he's out camping." I say.

"Oh well here's two king salmon for him, make sure you put it in the refrigerator." He holds out the slamon.

I stare at him for a moment like he's crazy. Why the heck would I want to touch this fish. Even if a layer of cling-wrap is seperating it from my hands. Those of you who know me well enough know I don't touch fish absolutely not. That's why most of you don't take me fishing anymore. Heck, I can't even touch dolphins at Sea World.

So there I am looking at me neighbor like he's crazy and trying to work up the nerve to grab the fish and contemplating my other options. I mean I can easily yell to 12 to come get the fish but she would say no or I could tell him I am not touching the fish but that'd be rude. After about two seconds I meet neighbors eyes again. He must've seen the horror there because he grinned and then kinda chuckled.

"Hold on." He turned around and went to the back of his truck and pulled out a trashbag. Carefully, he deposited the salmon in the bag ties then brings it back to me.

I take it finally but I can still imagine the fish in there. I mean for goodness sakes they still had freaking eyeballs and stuff. I'm holding it as far away from my body as possible but the fish are huge and very heavy so I end up holding it with both hands. Which by the way makes me feel weak because he was holding them both with one hand.

"The refrigerator?" I repeat, just to make sure.

He nods and says yes. I say thank you, he nods and goes back to his house.

I shut the door and immediately yell for Aunt. Who comes out of the back room. Now she likes fish just as much as I do so she delicately manages to evade me handing her the bag.

12 clears out an area in the fridge for the gigantic salmon all the while staring at me and the bag as if she expects me to throw them on her. I debated throwing them on her.

Then Aunt puts the fish in there and tells me and 12 that Uncle isn't allowed to ask for fish anymore.

We all go back to our spots before the fish trauma and sit for a minute. 12 asks me another question about Pirates and everything goes back to normal. I just can't wait for Uncle to get home.
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What am I listening to?
Touch to much - AC/DC

General Update

I had to inform 12 today that people in Oklahoma are not all cowboys and don't all live on cattle ranches. Much the same way that people in Alaska are not all Eskimo's and live in igloos. She was surprised.

I am so very much going to miss the family dog here Sampson. I've been taking him for a walk everynight to get some exercise and he is the best thing ever. I'll try to get a pic up of him when I can. He comes to sleep with me now, and he just nosed his way into the computer room to lay under the desk while I type this. :( I'm guna miss Sami.

You know how in OK there are a lot of things named with indian-ish names? Owasso, Skiatook, Muldrow, Tulsa, Potau, etc? Well here there are a ton of eskimo-ish names. Manashka, Chiniak, Karluk, Ashiok, and Ouzinke. I can't even begin to pronounce some of these! It drives me insane. Manashka is Mohn-Osh-Kah. Idk, maybe that was obvious but when I was reading it I couldn't figure it out...

12 wants me to take her to the library. So, you know, duty calls. I wish I had a little sister full time. :(
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What am I listening too?
No Rain - Blind Melon

Video Games

I am a competitive person. I like winning. Which is why my dear cousin Jacob wouldn't play me in video games unless he knew he would win.

Remember Pokemon? He'd never battle me. Mario Party? Wouldn't play with me. Mario Kart? Wouldn't race me. Medal of Honor? He'd whoop my butt. Call of Duty? He showed no mercy.

I blame it on my uncle and father. They would play the nine/ten year old me and not let me win. Even when my aunt pointed out that wasn't fair. They just wouldn't do it. They'd say she needs to learn to win on her own.


We had a Nintendo 64 back in those days. We played Mario Party 1 and Yoshi Story, Mario Tenis and Mario Kart, Gauntlet and Banjo Tooie. It was competition.The first one I mastered was Mario Kart.

I remember the first time I beat my Uncle K.T. I ran and told my granny and papa and Aunt Gayla, I was so excited. He frowned and asked to play me again. Of course I accepted and I lost that time. It was the last time he played Mario Kart with me. He still hasn't played me.He told me he had to quit when he's on top.

My dad confirmed this, by telling me the story of them playing one-on-one basketball. The last time they'd played KT had won and now he wouldn't play basketball with my dad anymore. Which of course burns my dads biscuits so to speak.

So this is how I grew up with video games. Quit while your ahead, Show no mercy, That kind of thing. Not exactly the best kind of morals. But they are mine nevertheless.I told you all this to tell you my views on the wii.

The wii is not normal. The controller or nunchuck thing confuses me. I like normal controllers. With buttons and a joystick. I like the physicalness of it yes but still it's to much work. I like being a lazy video game player.

Now yes I will admit, 12 beat me so bad I never again want to touch the games, and yes that has utterly hurt my pride so yeah it may not be a deep emotional reason I don't approve of the game console. It's not necessarily a good reason but it is mine. And I decided to share with you. ;)

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What am I listening to?

Check On It - Beyonce

New Books

I like new books. They smell just as good as old books. :) So alaskan family and I watched Failure to Launch last night. We had a hoot even though 12 year old had to cover her eyes at some parts.

I'm listening to We Made You by Eminem way to much. But it has a fun chorus. Really it does. And it's catchy. :) 12 and I watched Sinbad last night she loved it which made me happy. That is one of my favorite cartoon/older people movies. It beats Shrek in my book.

24 year old cousin Nate just flew in from Florida. He is fun and an english teacher. :D! He just finished his first year of teaching, he's great. And a wii hog. Not that I play the wii. But that is a rant for a little bit later*. He told me he had a revelation about Thanksgiving this year. He said Grammer and whatnot really don't matter. He said about 99% of his studetns won't ever really look at it ever again. He makes me smile. I have a lot in common with these cousins.

12 as I am now going to refer to Hannah in these posts is getting super psyched about Princess Protection Program which will aire on Disney Channel while I'm down... er up here. Not that I'd ever tell her or anything but I'm actually kind of looking forward to the old cute simple disney channel movies. They're kinda cute.**

I rented a movie called Hidaligo which is bound to be good. I hope at least that it is.... Anyway, I'm off to watch that. Aunty is making Ritz Casserole so I'm kinda excited. I love that stuff. :D
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* I'll make another post in the future about this.

** I totally did just type that I'm okay with the Disney Channel stuff. Ahhh!! I've turned back to the pink side. Hello Kitty will find me soon...

Water Gun Fight In Alaska

That sentence doesn't even compute right? I mean really? Water gun fight? In Alaska? Where people apparantly live in igloos? HA! But yeah. It happened and surprisingly, it was entertaining. I'd have pictures but I'm smarter than to take my camera around water. But yeah, Cousin Amy and her Boyfriend Connor kidnapped Hannah and I to go to a place called Sometimes Island (sometimes its an island, sometimes its not) and it was on.

I was already shivering because I had on capris and quite frankly the gulf of Alaska is freezing, just as freezing as the North Pacific and you know why? A good percentage of it is glaciers. So I was trying to fill up my water gun when I hear a scream. When I look I see that Connor has grabbed Amy and literally thrown her in the water. I just kind of have a jaw drop moment. Until she gets up and is obviously furious and takes his flip flops off the shore and throws them into the ocean. Yes throws them into the ocean. She then goes and sits on the beach and says he better hurry to get them because the current will take them and be done with them.

He does the little frown pouty guy thing then sighs and starts swimming, because its very true, the current is taking them far away. So he swims all the way out there to get them and comes back. (How I wish I had my camera at that moment) They kiss and make up yatta yatta. I asked if he'd be willing to do that again if I got my camera and he said he didn't really think he would. Worth a try though right? Haha.

Here's The Sitch.

Important things that have happened in the last three days.

1. Phone was dropped in the sink. With the water running. Honestly though? I am so not surprised it tried to commit suicide. I apparently am not a good owner. Anyway for some reason it lost control of its moment of rebellion and is now happily back in my service.

2. Dinsey. I have a little cousin. She likes it. A lot. Lets just say I'm remembering a lot of old disney songs that I shouldn't know. Such as flashbacks to Kim Possible, Getcha Head In the Game from the original HSM, and movie surfers. I'm going to need serious Disney Rehab. I swear.... Can you say Princess Protection Program?

3. I have started a new series by Rachel Caine. And no it isn't the Morganville vampires. It is the Weather Warden series. And I've become obsessed. I've read the first four in the last three days. And I'm hesitant to start the next one because I know I will deprive myself of sleep. Seeing as its one thirty here while I type this.

4. All of friends have better things to do than text or email me, which I get but still guys. Have pity.

5. My lil cuz is bein introduced to Tammy Pierce!!! And so far she approves. Which makes me happy. :)

Much Love my peeps. Mail me sometime.

Alaska

I'm in Alaska. Yeah I live in Oklahoma but atm I am visiting my aunts here on Kodiak Island.


So far it's been oodles of fun. It's pretty entertaining seeing how the island is broken up. I'll add pictures later. But there are many Russian People, even a Russian Orthodox Church. It has those really cool spiral things that look like fat hershy kisses on the top. It's pretty.


They have a walmart. But it infantesimally small. All the books here I have read. I really want to go Kayaking and on the hiking trails but it's uber foggy. Here's what I mean...






It's taking forever to upload pictures On this internet, :( I am going to have to adjust w/o High Speed. Haha.


I'll add more as life goes on. I already have an idea for another post about Sampson the dog. Hehe. Laters.